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Post by Ashen Windsong on Apr 28, 2014 22:12:07 GMT -6
*didn't mean for the pic tp be that big...op*
Wildgard was silent as Ashen walked almost silently though the forest of Pan'do, head hanging low. the only sounds that could be heard where the newly awaked crickets with there chirps and songs, and the crunching of old grass with leafs from her feet. as she walked memories flashed in her mind, keeping her senses dulled and her insight blind to all around her. words echoing in her head of the events of the day. what was meant to be a simple day of rest and ale drinking turned into a complete disaster. Ashen still remained lifeless as she walked, tears pouring effortlessly from her eyes, cascading down her cheeks.
after what seemed like years of walking Ashen snapped to reality only slightly when a fence appeared in her way. slowly she looked up to see the glow of her home, the Silver Scale Guild House. The light from the windows hurt her eyes, as she raised her hand to block her eyes from the burning light. movement caught her eye, as she slowly straightened and watched. She could see her Scale sister inside. Moving around in the Kitchen, puttering around and cleaning probably waiting for her to come home. Ashen felt sick suddenly, how was she going to tell her sister she had to...relive her past. Ashen began to breath heavy, panic rising from her deep within her belly slowly began to raise.
She felt fire in her feet as she quickly walked past the barn, past the open pen, and past Matsu Blacksmith hut. a few moments away was Ashen's Tree, where she normally hide, or even sat to think. normally she would Climb the thick monstrous tree to its many sturdy branches, and watch the world from a birds eye view. hands shacking noticeably sense well before sunset, she rest her left on the tree using it to hold her up, she felt like she couldn't breath. she felt like she was drowning in the spinning dark world around her. her whole body sore, her heart refused to slow down, she felt as if the very fiber of her clothing she was wearing was trying to strangle her. Quickly with her little will and strength she ripped off her head band, bow and quiver. casting her weapons away as she removed her shirt and tunic leaving her with her undershirt, bindings and bandaged right shoulder on her upper body. revealing her scared body to the night air. it was cool on her skin which calmed her slightly.
Ashen knew she just needed to slow down and think. this wasn't the only person she had killed, even though she vowed her mother would be her last. With the thought of her mother, memories of her childhood rushed though her in a second, sparking emotions she believed to had been ridden of years ago. tied with those feeling she remembered Starfire begging for death from Ashen countless times. every time she refused, until Starfire wanted to sacrifice herself for Destieal out of love. Ashen knew more then anyone of that sacrifice, if it where anyone she cared for she would seem harm to herself before anyone else. she didn't want to see Starfire be tortured and maimed by the barbarians for information of the demon portals and the workings of those foul things. she was forced to bring up old practices, and eliminate Starfire.
Placing her hand back on the Tree she tried desperately to slow her breathing, only to have Ursa's words echo in her mind sparking rage with her sorrow. 'I thought the silver scale where good people, how could you do this!? how could you betray me?!' the words echoed over and over. Ashens nails dag into the bark of the tree as her head began to hang low and pound. fighting off the rage and tears, which she knew was a losing battle. "I had no choice" she muttered aloud "I had no choice!" she yelled. "it was her, or Wildgard! The damned Barbarians wanted Demonic power and we are already short of numbers as it is!" she continued to try and reason with haunting voice of Ursa in her mind, the tears she fought still disobeyed and flowed down. "and now..." her voice now low as her head hang in shame. "now...for my choice, you claim war on the Silver scale....you stupid bear...ill see your throat cut for this" a low Panther like growl rumbled low in ashen's chest, her nails dag more into the bark as it began to crack. in a flash Ashen ripped her hand down ripping the bark off the tree, keeping her hands clenched she flinged her head back, Yelling long winded into the night sky with a rage fill hell scream.
as she breathed in her left fist collided with the tree letting out another scream of pure rage. as she finished ashen began to cry, she couldn't hold it back any longer. she had broken her vow to kill, she had broken a vow to never kill a child, she had broken her vow to Ursa, she had broken herself....and now her people would be hunted and she wasn't strong enough to fight off all of the dauntless. her people where in danger, because Ashen had to save Wildgard from itself.
her knees finally gave way, she slide down the rough tree allowing herself to cry in the dark silence of the forest. she was scared, she was angry, she was filled with sorrow and ever other emotions she could think of. she was frightened....of the thought that she had become what she tried to hard to rid herself of. she wanted nothing of this madness. all she wanted was a peaceful life with a family, and now that she helped a comrade with her final wish, and saved her home she had become the monster she feared all over again. resting her forehead on the tree, she could feel her knees getting wet from the wet soil underground. the Darkness of the forest was welcoming and all she deserved right now. the only thing keeping her by the tree, was the lack of will to move. she wanted nothing more then to run, and never...never come back.
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Allynn
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Post by Allynn on Apr 30, 2014 1:21:03 GMT -6
Allynn had been puttering around the kitchen, preparing dinner for Ashen when she returned home. a noise from upstairs grabbed her attention and she walked up to her room to find the miniature shrine where she had her memento's from the Moonclan hall toppled over and the necklace that she had received from Mulds shattered on the floor. Allynn believed in omens, and this was a bad one. did it mean that Mulds was dead? he had dissapeared months ago, or was it someone else from the clan?
quietly Allynn checked on Lucas, the rabbit Kintu was sleeping soundly in his basket oblivious to everything around him. A knot of worry was forming in Allynn's chest, it grew steadily more painful as she descended down the stairs.
returning to the Kitchen Allynn continued to prepare food and to set the table, picking up the ceramic bowl of fruit she took a couple steps before an earth shattering scream pierced the air around her. dropping the bowl she covered her sensitive ears with her hands until it was over. "what in the hells was THAT?" she asked herself as she bent down to pick up the shards of the bowl that were now scattered all over the floor.
a second scream pierced the air and Allynn took a step back as she scrambled to cover her ears, a sharp pain made her yelp as her foot was impaled by one of the shards. while attempting to pull it out she lost her balance and fell over, a few more shards embedded themselves into her back. she yelped again in pain and pried away the ones she could reach herself.
grabbing a pair of sandals Allynn went outside and looked around, ahead of her the forest was silent, but she could hear sounds coming from further away, beyond matsu's hut. she walked quickly, though taking her steps quietly. as her eyes adjusted to the darkness she saw ashen, she heard her cries, and she knew that something bad had happened.
"Ashen." she spoke her scale sisters name quietly. not wishing to scare her. "what has happened?" the last time she had seen Ashen like this had been a long time ago, when they were both still young, and very different from who they were today. the knot of worry twisted more as she moved closer to Ashen. slowly she knelt beside her scale sister and placed her hand on her shoulder. "Ashen..."
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Post by Ashen Windsong on Apr 30, 2014 21:24:41 GMT -6
Ashen couldn't even hear the crickets throw her sobs. she was trembling and barely able to breath, images of her mother, the beatings, the killing, the blood... Ashens eyes poped open as she realized she could literally smell the blood. As the images flashed in her minds eye, a low panther like growl grew from her throat again. she felt the need to rampage though somewhere, making it rain her favorite color.
'why not kill them....why not? who said you had to save them...face it you enjoyed killing Starfire like the Beast you are. its only in your nature to kill...'
the voice echoed in her mind with the images flashed over and over, faster and faster. "no...." Ashen whimpered
suddenly she felt something on her shoulder and she quickly turned around smacking the hand away. instantly grabbing who ever it was behind her by the throat forcing them to the ground. her growling never stopped as she blindly continued to strangle the person. "I SAID NO!" Ashen yelled wrapping her one hand effortlessly around her unsuspecting victims neck.
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Allynn
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Post by Allynn on Apr 30, 2014 23:02:12 GMT -6
a had suddenly grabbed her neck. a short gasp was all that managed to escape her mouth before her airflow was completely cut off. she placed one of her hand over the one holding her neck. she knew that she could not pull Ashens hand away, her grip was too tight. she had only seen ashen like this once before, and she had nearly died then too.
her vision was beginning to blur from the lack of air reaching her lungs. she could only hope that Ashen returned to her senses, soon.
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Post by Ashen Windsong on Apr 30, 2014 23:15:25 GMT -6
Ashen blinked as she felt a warm hand on her cold skin. Snapping to her senses Ashen panicked and gasped, letting go of Allynn throat immediately. backing up to allow her Sister to breath. moving both hands up her mouth Ashen began to cry again, Fearing what she just had uncontrollably done.
"Gods, Allynn...im so...I didn't...im so sorry, im so Sorry...please don't hate me!" Ashen wanted to help Allynn up, pat her on her back or something. however Ashen was beginning to fear touching other people, she was a Monster and for god sake she had just tried to kill her own Sister! Ashen began to shimmy back but was abruptly stopped by the very tree she favored. she felt as if she was a Danger to everyone around her.
"im so sorry, im so sorry" she whimpered her chant quietly. maybe she should run, run away, never come back, never to be seen, to leave all she had for the safety of them. Ashen closed her eyes, she couldn't bare the thought of even looking at Allynn anymore for what she did to her.
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Jay
Journeyman Roleplayer
I need some ale
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Post by Jay on May 1, 2014 0:24:14 GMT -6
Jay stood near the house watch Ashen and the person he'd never seen before. He had seen what Ashen had done, he'd seen her kill the one named Starfire as he watched from the the tavern in which she had told him to run to. He didn't know why she did it but knew it affected her in a negative way. He stayed inside the tavern though, only leaving once he felt it was safe but didn't know what to do. He wanted to comfort her but without being able to talk it would be difficult. Hopefully this new person would be able to help
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Allynn
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Post by Allynn on May 21, 2014 1:06:13 GMT -6
Fear. All Allynn could feel right now was fear. it was something that she had not felt in many years. she'd had a demon place a blade to her neck and she had felt nothing. yet here she was shaking uncontrollably with fear, it was consuming her completely. 'run'
slowly she backed away. "it's okay Ashen, i don't hate you." she did not hate her scale sister, but the fear was consuming her, she knew ashen wouldn't believe her with the way she was acting.
"believe my words, i do not hate you." her body was still shaking. standing, she continued to back away from Ashen. "don't be sorry, we can get through this" 'run, run far away,' "i'm sorry Ashen, im sorry." she quickly spun on her heel and ran into Pan'do forest, tripping over roots and crashing through branches, she could feel the fear pushing her further and further away. tears streamed behind her as she ran, the pain in her heart from leaving Ashen nearly causing her to collapse. she ran and ran and ran. not knowing how far or fast she was going.
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Post by Ashen Windsong on Jun 6, 2014 0:13:29 GMT -6
Ashen closed her eyes as allynn ran away. Ashen truly couldn't feel hate towards allynn, she would run away from here also. Quietly she held her arms and walked up to her room passing jay, not even making eye contact. Once ashen calmed down, she equipped her tracking gear, and searched for Allynn *forum done*
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